Cost of the Heart

Tag: Asha

  • Under a Dark Star : Cobwebs of Minds

    Under a Dark Star : Cobwebs of Minds

     Talas had crawled out of the pool of water and was sitting on the edge waiting for Asha. She was thinking about things. She had never felt the things she had these past two nights. She had been intertwined with another’s being. She saw and felt emotions alien to her. All in the mind. Her hip leg/arms snapped into the socket on her body with a snick she felt through her body. Clearing her thoughts a little they drifted to her babies. My little ones, how many are you left? Reaching out with her thoughts she caresses each little mind she could feel. There was a gentle “cooing” in her mind as she reached out.

     Gently taking the egg sack of what was left of her babies Asha swam up and joined Talas at the edge of the pool.

    Asha, how many babies are left? Talas found himself concerned as he could hear and feel Asha climb out of the water to settle next to him. The night was full and darkness swallowed all.

    Many babies lost. Maybe 20 left. Will know when they come out in two more nights. I hurt Talas, I never hurt before. Why do I hurt inside.

    Talas could feel the pain and loss that Asha felt inside each of her thoughts he touched. Asha, they were your babies, your children, of course you mourn the loss of them. You loved them. Talas soothed and caressed Asha’s heart and mind.

    Talas, I not Love before. I no care how many live or die. I just train as many for the reaping as I can. Only 10 can be reaped. Rest die. I don’t want babies to go to reaping now. I hurt for other babies now. This love hurt. I no like it. Love for you different. It not hurt. Asha let loose a loud cry of dispar that echoed through the cave. Raw and primal were the sobs that followed. Reaching over Talas pulled her in tight. The chitin armor hard and edged. Talas didn’t care; he just held Asha as she cried tearless sobs. Asha, I love you.

     Talas held that thought not as an echo of words but as a blanket of pure caring and balm for her heart. Talas wrapped Asha in his blanket of thought soothing her mind and holding her heart gently but securely as he could. Talas reached out to the babies feeling their “cooing” he held them in that same blanket of love he suspended Asha in.

     The babies, now being comforted after suffering such an ordeal, were experiencing something new from their mother and this other creature that was not food. They were young enough for this not to be alien but it was new and welcome. Mentally they snuggled into their mother and this not food creature felt something new. Each of them in the web of thought and emotion including Asha, with Talas coming to tears with the overwhelming feeling of family, of unity, of oneness through love.

    This family wrapped in darkness shared the brightness of love dancing through the forged heart Under a Dark Star.

    (continued)

    -d²

  • Under a Dark Star: Become One

    Under a Dark Star: Become One

    Talas woke intertwined with Asha still kissing to keep him alive underwater. Looking up he saw the surface of the pool still tinged with blood red to burnt orange coloring across ripples. Feeling the babies cry at the edges of his awareness there was something different. More “cooing” instead of gnawing? Shaking his head he felt Asha’s grip tighten. Her groggy thoughts touched his.

    Talas, you, ok? Still not safe. Only when light gone. Her thoughts gently caressed his mind and heart. Her tone soothing to him, he tightened his hug feeling her smooth warm body against him. How long, Asha, we need to hunt for babies. This thought stunned him, he felt a need to care for the babies, for Asha. He knew she was still weak and needed to eat.

    Asha felt these thoughts that wafted through Talas’s mind. His concern for her and her babies touched and melted a heart she once did not have. Her love for Talas now whole and complete. There was no turning back from this abyss of feelings, desire, and commitment. She belonged to Talas and he to her.

    Talas, I love you. Tonight, and maybe another day. Sun angry, bad angry. Babies be ok, Asha be ok, she in your arms. With that warm thought wrapping around Talas’s mind Asha wrapped her body even tighter into Talas. Their thoughts blended.

     She delved into Tala’s heart; found his desires, his most secret hopes, Asha found his heart and devoured it completely. Talas laid bare and did not hold back. He felt her penetrating into his most precious thoughts and feelings. His memories of love, the broken heart as a boy, all of it. In turn he felt her void of loving memories, the hurt she felt when rejected by him, the raw, primitive desire to love and be loved. Loved by him, to love him. Only him. Talas realized.

     There could be no physical coupling between these two. The body make up would not allow it.

     Asha though danced and spun webs of desire and passion within Talas’s mind. He followed with abandon. The two became one in heart. Each one’s mind alien to the other, but the hearts, those knew each other. It was through Talas’s own heart that Asha grew one. They made love in the most intimate of ways, through the mind’s eye. Each a breeze or torrent of passion within a shared waking dream throughout the night and day.

     The Dark Star’s raging solar storm lasted for three full cycles day and night. Asha and Talas stayed in that in between awake and dream state with each other the entire time. Even in sleep Talas felt her and Asha felt him.

     Night fell, the surface of the pool was dark, both Asha and Talas looked up while in their life/love embrace. Each clung to the other not for just life but for existential existence.

    I want to stay here… The thought was simultaneously both of theirs. The emotional and mental hug and deep kiss would move poets to tears if there were any present to see and know. There was nothing physical, it was in the minds of Asha and Talas which created a singularity of a heart in each one burning to never part from the other.

    Asha, I adore you. Thank you for not eating me. Talas mentally laughed.

    Asha happy no eat Talas too. I love Talas. I will learn ‘adore’ Talas. The pureness of those feelings overtook Talas.

    His tears went unnoticed in a pool of water.

    Talas, no sad, I love you. Feeling his tears instead of seeing them, Asha was confused by the waves of emotions coming from Talas. She physically caressed him on the cheek while gazing through the water into his eyes.

    Asha, oh my Asha. These are tears of not just sadness but joy too. I found you. They are bittersweet my love, because it took so long to find you, but find you I did.

    The two Lovers stayed submerged another two hours wafting together through the passions of the heart.

    (continued) -d²

  • Under a Dark Star

    Under a Dark Star

    Asha

    Asha came upon Talas’s passed out body with limbs sprawled out. Kicking him with her forward leg/arm she muses, hmm hard shell. Will sharpen children’s teeth. What is this? The head-thing still warm, still making sound. Asha cocked her head as she listened to the faint thump of Talas’s heart, still strong but faint beneath the jumpsuit composite armored shell. As she listened to the heart, she then moved closer to the large hole in the faceplate. Breathing in through her nostrils she could smell the carbon dioxide he exhaled. Food, the children will be sated today. Sniffing more over Talas the iron smell of blood filled her nostrils. Not from here, from out there. Too bad food, may have been play thing. Oh well.

    Looking at the horizon the deep red glow crept across the craggy expanse. Nightfall, must get home before star see me. Asha grabbed Talas’s broken leg with one of most hind feet/hands and began dragging him as she made way in the opposite direction of the rising dark star. A popping sound from Talas made Asha look back over her shoulder as she kept crawling forward on the seven leg/arms she had with one pulling Talas. The pop had set Talas’ compound fracture of his femur. Cocking her head a faint gasp reached her ears. Dropping the leg she was pulling she rotated on all eight legs to face Talas’s body laying face up on the dusty floor of the baren cavern she was pulling him through to get to the home. Rising up on her back four leg/arms she looked down on the slowly moving grunting thing.

    Talas started gaining consciousness when his bone was inadvertently set and the enviro-suit started to treat the wound.

    “Wha, where, Pia, status.” Pia was silent, just the wind made a sound he could hear through his helmet even with the faceplate damage. Hearing a rustle Talas tried to raise up on his elbow a managed to roll on his side in a fit of blinding pain. He saw her then, Asha.

    “AHHH, what in bloody hell is that!!?” Talas screamed in fear and pain as he tried to push away with his good leg dragging the broken.

    Asha gazed upon Talas with curiosity as he scream and was pushing his way across the hard ground. Where are you going food. You are broken, I am not.

    Asha bound like a jumping spider. As she lands her center four hand/feet pin each limb by the ankles or wrists. Her other four arms begin to look for ways to tear away the dropsuit armor.

     “No get off.” Talas struggles but to no avail. Asha now gazes into his face.  Talas completely silent now in fear he has never felt. The urine bladder of the suit fills as he screams and Ash screams back.

    “AHHHHHHHH” Ash screeches into Talas’s helmet, this can come off, quite food so we don’t attract attention. Be quite, we can be eaten. She thinks as she fumbles with Talas’s helmet. Yes, releases, ah from way beyond, not red hole place. Must get you home to my babies, they are hungry. The helmet flies off into the coming blood dawn as she looks for the first time fully into Talas’s green eyes. What, you.. Asha freezes.

    Talas squirms, fighting to get away from the iron grips binding him to this creature. My helmet, have to keep it from getting it off. A whimper escapes Talas’s mouth, images of being eaten by small creatures like this flooded his mind.

    No, no what no! Please I don’t want to die being eaten. Emperor’s Beards, not like this, I wanted to at least love once. Please! My helmet, oh, oh my god… His helmet gone from time now as he stared into darkness within the two predominant dark orbs that pierced his mind and heart like a laser through the night.

    Dark primal thoughts intertwined with those of Talas’s warmest and cherished. NO, these are mine, my thoughts. Laid bare was the raw emotion behind each of those thoughts of love. ‘Mine’ Invaded his thoughts, repeatedly, That’s not me, that’s not my thought. Raw, sharp. Dark as obsidian. His thoughts turned over at the invasion of his emotions, he was now just an observer of the logic while his heart was detected repeatedly. He broke and sobbed in a deep mourning of loss quivering for what seemed an eternity.

    Asha fell deeper and deeper into this well of passions never felt, devotions never believed possible, a oneness never hoped for. Her dark primal cold existence felt emotional warmth for the first time. “Ahh, ah, mmm.” She sobbed as Talas sobbed and she tore into his most cherished memories and love. Need it what is it, warm, dark and light at same time, Love!! I want it. This food thing will give me love. I will love it. Babies will be hungry another night. Will hunt again tonight. Have to go now!

    Franticly and now efficiently after probing Talas mind of his suit she was able to rip his armor away in seconds with all eight arm/legs working.

    With all the armor off Asha started to lift Talas onto her back.

    “No!” Talas shouted with a painful twist which caused him to land on the ground.

    “Humf. That hurt, no!” He shouted at her. Looking deep into his eyes she sent a piercing thought into his mind.

    Like a sledgehammer Asha’s thoughts pealed back his resistance, ‘We go, I put you on back. Star kill, trsickls kill, we go home now; babies alone!’  Talas went limp with the psychic blast of pure fear and was completely compliant as Asha held him with her middle four arm/legs tight to her back as she ran across the scrub and scree on the other four arm/legs. He felt the heat from the rising sun, but the dawning light was dark and heavy. He closed his eyes and slept as she cradled him on her back running to safety.

    Pain shot through Talas’s body as he felt himself being set down on a soft silky bedding. Not once did he open his eyes. Once fully resting on the bedding he grunted and gave into the deep sleep his body needed.

    Sleep slowly drifted away as Talas heard a strange screeching muttering just out of earshot. In his mind a buzzing nagged him at the edges. He heard the thing No Asha, she was coming closer but was not muttering anymore. Where am I what are these things.

    ‘Talas, you are awake’ she pushed gently in his mind he felt. Thoughts not as primal but still raw and pure.

    ‘What do you want? Am I food, why didn’t you just kill me?’ dark thoughts of being eaten by thousands of tiny, fanged mouths echoed through his mind.

    ‘No, you no food. I love you. You love me. We have love together. You want love, I want you to love me.’ His mind reeled as these strange dark thoughts crawled into each hope he had of love. How can I love this, this thing, this horrendous creature.

    Talas shuddered with the last thought.

    ‘I not thing, I Asha, your wife. You love me. I love you.’

    With every fiber of his body and mind he screamed, “HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME? Or I you!”

    Gently, silently, Asha’s silken voice seeps into his mind; ‘I love you because I don’t want my babies to eat you. You are mine, husband and you will love me.’

    -continued

    -d²